The Insecurity of Writing About God

a poem about my fear and insecurity about writing so much theology

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I’m afraid to write theology,
adding to a dead library of thought
with little beauty and No doxology.
Writing about God
is a mercy-less act that can kill any thought of art.
Something captivating I want to write 
but analysis is all that comes out.

Can words about God 
Produce more than a knockoff 
of knockoffs?
Or worse
Intelligent statements that lack
a heart?

You
are fearless beauty, 
bountiful dazzlement, 
endless depth.
So I fear giving in 
to my simple thoughts 
and not you-complexity.

To give
myself to theology
could be to move past 
systematic statements 
and edgy hooks 
and peer into 
a perfect void of light.

From light
stems shadows
and colors untold.
Perhaps, in giving myself
I could cure the depression 
of wanting words to be beauty 
and instead

simply be
involved in thoughts
True, Pure, Honest,
questions that have no answer 
and doxology that fills the soul.
this is the anxiety of writing about God: 
Is it enough?

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